Feelings....

"Feelings are so strange sometimes. The more you hide them, the more they show; the more you deny them, the more they grow.And the worst about it is that I can't even choose who I'm falling in love with.Actually my heart does this for me.And I can't put stop to my feelings, can't chase away them.I can't lie to myself either. My heart knows everything.She knows the truth all too well.Never got the way how does the heart chooses "the one". It's always so complicated.She lets him mistreat me, ignore me, hurt me, torture me and still chooses to stay with him.I wonder: why?!.Don't think I am so stupid to enjoy being hurt.It's because he brings happiness that covers all the pain, it's because I can see the good in him, it's because despite all the arguments, he is the one who makes me feel a certain way that no one else can ; I value that feeling because my brain won't allow him to leave my mind & my heart won't allow him to leave my life.

He was the worst kind of wrong . He was so wrong it felt right , and that made me feel completely out of control.

PS:and we kiss again and this time , it feels familiar. I know exactly how we fit together , his arm around my waist, my hands on his chest , the pressure of his lips on mine .We have each other memorised"